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This is me, and
this is how it started

Somewhere in Rajshahi, a small city up north known for mangoes, silk, and being pleasant in a way Dhaka has never once been accused of, a baby turned up in the early 2000s.

This is his portfolio. Spoiler: he's me.

the long way round

Rajshahi

Where it all loads from.

v0.1 · early 2000s

Initial commit

Rajshahi. Mango trees, the Padma somewhere behind everything, and a pace of life that Dhaka would find suspicious.

I have no memory of any of this, so you will have to take the photographs as evidence.

A newborn wrapped in a yellow blanket, held by my mother.
the defendant, aged very small
A quiet tree-lined road in Rajshahi, a rickshaw somewhere in the middle distance.

exhibit A

v0.5 · kindergarten

Vertex

Kindergarten happened at a school called Vertex, which is a confident name for a building whose main activity was napping.

I remember none of it. I am assured this is standard.

A row of small children singing on stage at a Pohela Boishakh programme.

v1.0 · skipped

we don't talk about v1

v2.0 · class two

The rumour that skipped a version

During class one, my mother heard from someone, somewhere, that this would be the last year government schools ever held the class-two admission test.

This was not true. It has never been true.

She entered me for it anyway. I sat the exam a year early and I got in. A rumour with no source made one of the better decisions of my life, and there is no arguing with a result.

unlocked · a year of head start, permanently

sounds likePoth Chola · Artcell
Two small children on a Rajshahi street, an auto-rickshaw parked behind them.

Seroil

Eight years, one building, mostly the same forty people.

v2.1 · 2010 — 2018

A year ahead, for eight years

So I arrived at Seroil Government High School a year ahead of my age group and stayed a year ahead for the next eight years. Younger than most of the room. Not the youngest in it, however much better the other version sounds.

Same benches, same corridor, same walk home. Friendships at that age are not chosen, they are assigned by seating plan. Several of mine held, which I credit entirely to good seating.

sounds likeSchool · Arbovirus
The whole batch on the school field in signed white shirts, the building behind them.
the ones that held

still the group chat

v2.9 · SSC, 2018

The result was fine

Fine in the specific way where everyone says “that's fine” in a tone that means something else.

sounds likeNumb · Linkin Park

The quiet years

Two of them. Very little happened, at considerable length.

v3.0 · 2018 — 2020

Two years, three days

Rajshahi Government City College. I attended three days.

Not three days a week. Three days.

If you held a gun to my head and asked me to name one of my college teachers, I would ask you to please just get on with it.

3

days attended, in two years, not counting exams

sounds likeBoulevard of Broken Dreams · Green Day

not a typo

v3.1 · 2020

The exam that never happened

My HSC preparation strategy was to fail with dignity.

Then, one week before the exam, the world shut.

Postponed.

Postponed again.

Then, in October: auto-pass.

lost · the only deadline I had left

sounds likeWaiting for the End · Linkin Park
The Daily Star, 22 March 2020: “Coronavirus: HSC, equivalent exams postponed”.
22 March 2020

v3.2 · the aftermath

A phrase I did not believe was allowed to exist

On paper it saved me. In practice it removed the last deadline I had, and I stopped studying entirely.

The university admission tests noticed, and responded accordingly.

sounds likeCastle of Glass · Linkin Park

BRAC

Four years. I am told this is where the personality came from.

the version with a grade point average in it is on Who?

v4.0 · Spring 2022

Both turned out to be wrong

After some hard conversations at home, I enrolled at BRAC University with a heavy heart and low expectations.

Both turned out to be wrong.

gained · four years I did not see coming

sounds likeFix You · Coldplay
The campus building from the street below, bougainvillea over the fence in front of it.

v4.2 · the residential semester

TARC

One semester spent on a campus in the middle of nowhere, with everyone you have just met and nowhere else to be.

University software assigned me a roommate and got it right on the first attempt, which I have not seen it manage since. Most of the people I spent the next three years with, I met that semester.

sounds likeLong Live · Taylor Swift
Twelve of us in suits in a campus atrium, photographed from the floor above.
most of the next three years, in one frame
A tree-lined path across the TARC campus, early morning, mist still on the field.

the algorithm got one right

v4.5 · 2023 — 2024

Nobody booked the room

Somewhere in there I became Director of Human Resources at the BRAC University Debating Club, a title that mostly means being the person who finds out at eleven at night that nobody booked the room.

One national tournament, two intra-university ones, and a permanent suspicion of anyone who says a venue is sorted.

sounds likeGuti · Aurthohin
The debating club together under its logo at the end of an event.
the room got booked eventually

v4.9 · Fall 2025

Four years went past like a page turning

Then it was the last semester, and everyone was saying goodbye badly, the way people do when they have not decided whether it counts as an ending.

Ask me what I got out of those four years and the honest answer is not the degree. It is the people, which is what everybody says. I checked. They are annoyingly right.

the actual takeaway

sounds likeGood Riddance (Time of Your Life) · Green Day

Now

Still compiling.

v5.0 · January 2026

The month everything collided

1 Jan
Final interview at Commure. I got the role.
13–14 Jan
Final exams.
31 Jan
Thesis defence.

So I started a full-time job before I finished my degree, which reads considerably better than that month felt.

Alhamdulillah, all of it got done. My thesis teammates carried more of that month than they will ever admit to, so I am admitting it here on their behalf.

shipped · while still in beta

sounds likeAwake and Alive · Skillet
The five of us in formal wear on the rooftop lawn, defence day.
they carried it

HEAD · today

Still being written

Dhaka, a job that is officially operations and unofficially a great deal of SQL, and a website that I keep telling people is nearly finished.

Bigger things ahead, insha'Allah.

on repeatCarnival of Rust · Poets of the Fall
A lit building in Dhaka at night, people on the steps outside it.
Dhaka, 22:45

HEAD -> main

That is everything so far. If you read all of it, you have now spent longer on my childhood than most of my friends have, and I think that entitles you to something.

You have earned this

Off hours

Enough biography. The music, the films and the series I actually go back to, grouped by what I want them to do rather than ranked, because a ranked list is not an argument.